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  1. I happened upon this thread a couple months ago, after having just come back from one of my many trips to Bangkok over the last few years. It rocked me some, because like many of you I found myself easily beguiled into barebacking many of the Sukhumvit girls. Yes, no doubt to some that behavior sounds unbelievably, unthinkably foolish. Others will say, if the risk of men contracting HIV from Thai girls is so great, there should be an epidemic long before now. Where is it? I was one of those, as I've long felt that it's almost impossible to contract HIV from heterosexual sex. Yet, Jungle's post disturbed me some when I first read it (and my best wishes to him). But I was much more disturbed about a month ago, when I underwent an operation for skin cancer and the incision site immediately developed a bad infection -- an infection resistant to the usual antibiotics. I'd never had an infection like this before. My doctor (in the States) was puzzled and had never seen anything like it either. After repeated failed efforts to heal the wound, she finally mentioned that I might have HIV. Suddenly it all made sense. So did other things, like suicide. I ended up spending time in hospital to deal with the infection, and took an HIV test there. They make you wait 3 days for results. Those who've been in my shoes know the difference, as I now know, between casual fears about maybe having HIV, and really good indications that you might. It's a world of difference. Waiting for those results was hell, what with the nagging realizations of all that being HIV positive would mean to my life coming alive in full technicolor. Some people here will know what I mean, others will blow it off. I can understand both ways of looking at this. The doctors finally managed to control my infection, but that was actually small comfort with the fears of having HIV still unresolved. But someone from the hospital called me a few hours ago with the test results, and it turns out I'm HIV negative. The relief is tremendous to say the least. Yet I'm glad for the all the fear because it's finally awakened me to the reality of the risk. I will probably always have doubts about the exact amount of risk involved in barebacking thai girls. The statistical risk may indeed be quite small. Even so, I don't ever want to go through these HIV fears again. http://www.altheal.org/events/bangkok.htm
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