Finally I filed for divorce part 6

[NongSung]

THE LAST ONE AND A HALF YEARS

HER STORY PART I

This part can be compared with MY STORY PART 1.

Yes the story about my sister is partly true. I was sure I was sick, felt something was very wrong with my body and my time seemed limited. I had to take care of my family back in Thailand with a huge amount of money. Yes, I loved (and still love) my husband but I needed a winning lottery ticket now; I have no time anymore. When I met this guy I though 'well, he's not that good looking but he can take care of me and my family very, very well'. I have priorities now; first money then love...

As time moved on I did not wanted him to visit my sister; he would be mine... I would give it a try with him and if it did not work out she could have him and I still would have my husband...

This guy did not like the dark areas on my face and he send me to a specialist. He wanted me to check for HIV before we continued our secret relationship. As soon as this was done I would tell my husband that I wanted a divorce.

And my husband was negative so I felt I had nothing to fear... But I was positive and this guy told me that he wanted to stop the relationship; just good friends but no future plans. I cried for days, about my life, about our lives, about being dumped, about being unfaithful to my husband who was so sweet to me when I told him I was positive.

I was very lucky that my husband did not find out about it; okay he felt something but I could convince him every time that nothing was going on. But I lost my barrier, I crossed the red line in our relationship; I betrayed him and it would never be the same anymore. Sooner or later he would find out and dump me anyway; unfaithful and HIV positive that would be enough for him...

I made some new Thai friends over here and played card with them in a massage parlor.

I thought ?what the hell, I can do a customer or two, he (my husband) will never find out?.

Slowly I started to work in that massage parlor (without telling my husband).

I needed money because my time was limited and I would lose my husband anyway sooner or later. At home I was able to act normal, I only had a hard time convincing him that I?d rather not go out and visit some particular Thai bar. I was tired, not feeling well; the people over there were bad, and so on. I did not wanted him to find out about my secret life.

And because I felt guilty I thought when I put him and my niece together I would not feel so guilty anymore. He did not approve that my niece would come over but accepted that my daughter would ask for a visa and shortly after that he booked a flight to Thailand in order to take care of things. Meantime I worked at this massage parlor and there I met a guy called X.

He really went crazy about me, spend a lot of money on me and although he was married and not that good looking; he owned his own company, drove a big BMW so there was my lottery ticket!

I dated him on several occasions, showed him to my friends (even friends my husband knew) because I was sure that my marriage was over and that I would go on with X.

My husband came home and I tried to open up the issue by bullshitting him with a story about a fortune teller; I wanted him to let me go and push him to another girl. That would make things easier. But he noticed there was something going on...

To be continued...

NongSung